Sermon by Angie Wright
“I Was Lost”
Sunday July 10, 2016
As a child I got lost once at the mall. I was with my mom and dad and we stopped to look at something in one of the areas that are in the center of the mall. The next thing I know, I looked up and they were gone. I was so scared, my heart started pounding and I started crying. My head went through so many different scenarios of what might happen if they couldn’t find me. Would someone snatch me? Or would I be lost forever? What was I supposed to do? No one prepared me for this to happen. Being lost is a horrible feeling to have in life.
Can you remember a time when you were lost and how you felt?
Come to find out, that is not the only time I was lost in my life, I was lost the first 40 years. Without knowing and having God in my life, I feared many things and felt very alone. Seeking love and acceptance, but always ending up on the short end of the stick. I was just like those Israelites, on that mountain for forty years and eleven months; I was lost and stuck in a path that was not intended for me. Moses told the children of Israel that day, the Lord our God spoke to us in Horeb, saying: “You have dwelt long enough at this mountain. Turn and take your journey”.
In a Google search there was a sermon entitled: “When God says “go!” Don’t Say “No!”” Written by Jim Twamley. Within his sermon he asked these questions: “What new thing is God calling you to?” “Where is God saying to go?” “Where in your life are you telling God “No!” When you finally listen and go in the direction that is intended for you, it is amazing what you will find.
Growing up all I wanted was to be smart. I went to college once before but I was too afraid of being a disappointment to my family. Education was not important where I came from. I had no one to push me to be all I could be and I did not know how to push myself. I dropped out after my second year. This is where I told God no. I lived many years regretting my decision and through the years I still wanted to go back but I was too scared of failing. When I finally started listening, I went back to school and it has turned my life around in so many ways. I now have a degree in Accounting and currently working towards a bachelors in psychology. When you start following your path, not only does God believe in you and push you but the belief in yourself starts showing and just the pure joy of being successful keeps you going.
My faith journey is still very new and it continues to grow more and more each day. I cannot express the gratitude I have. As I sit and reflect on how my life has changed in just this short amount of time, it still overwhelms me. When I start talking about my life; where I was and who I am today, I still get tears in my eyes; because I know it could have been so different. The path that I was on was not the one intended for me and I fought it for so many years.
Looking back as I often do, I can see many warnings that were given to me. At that time I was drowning in my own self-pity, feeling like I deserved nothing good in my life and that what my life consisted of was my punishment. I do a lot of reflecting and thanking God for saving me. I will never be able to say it enough… “I am truly blessed”. I know people say that all the time, but truly, I do have a great life and I owe it all to God.
In September of 2014 I was at my lowest point in my life, ask anyone who knew me then. I was sleeping on a friend’s couch and Aiden on the floor next to me. I had nowhere to go, no money to afford my own place and definitely no confidence in myself that I was going to overcome what had just happened to me. I was drowning in my misery and scared out of my mind not knowing what I was going to do. How was I going to take care of my son and provide for him when I couldn’t even take care of myself?
It is true that people pray when they are at their lowest, I am a true testament to that. I started praying to God for help, wisdom and guidance. I prayed to God to show me the way for a better life with my son. I started thanking the people that where there to pick me up when I fell and I learned how to become humbled and take help, even from complete strangers. I told people my situation and the ones that I wouldn’t have thought would help are the ones that stepped in with no questions asked. People that really didn’t know who I was helped me get my own place and gave support to me and Aiden until we got on our feet. These people, God’s people, rather they know it or not, came together to help a lost soul find their way back home.
I am finally moving in the path God created for me.
My life is great for many reasons. When you have the ability to reflect and compare who you are now as opposed to just a year from now; and see such a different person standing in front of you, that is a huge accomplishment. I am healthier which gives me the ability to be more active with my precious son. I am in a path that I have always desired, I have stability and I have gotten rid of the majority of the toxic people in my life. I am able to see life in a different perspective for the first time and I am so stoked and blessed to walk this path.
I can attest that starting my new path has been a struggle. The struggle was within me with learning and understanding how to have faith for the very first time in my life. The Lord says “there will be a storm, but be calm and be still” and I will guide you through it. Did I question God and this so called faith? Absolutely I did for months. Every day I questioned and I didn’t understand the power of God. Miracles starting happening slowly and then became daily. Reflecting on myself, just a year and a half ago to now; WOW, how foolish I was to not have enough faith.
Look at me now! Full of life, love, spirit, joy, positives’; wanting to learn as much as I can about the Lord. Wanting to do God’s work daily, to teach people what kind of life they can have when they just have faith. I am finally on the path that was intended for me and I am thankful and grateful every day to be on this journey. There is nothing but pure joy inside of me because now I know God loves me and never gave up on me!
Do you remember being a kid and all you wanted was to be noticed? Did you ever want someone just to see your potential and help you grow? This is what I have now; someone who never gave up on me and will continue to love me unconditionally. The Lord shows me every day what I have to offer; not only to myself but to everyone in this world that I come into contact with. There are many things that are different in me since I have started believing and following my path.
I am much happier now. It is amazing how belief can change your attitude. Before I could only see the negative in every situation; now, I am able to take a step back and see the positive and that is what I focus on. When something happens it’s not a poor me; it is I have the resources to change this. Having faith changes every aspect of your life and it is a great feeling. Being grateful for what I have has also changed me. I appreciate what I have a lot more than in the past. I now realize that I am rich in so many ways and what I have in life is much better than anything materialistic. Thank you Lord for what you provide for me: a roof, a beautiful son to love, amazing friends to share with, an amazing job, and the ability to live a loving life.
Tim Parson wrote a sermon with the topic “It’s Time to Move On”. In this sermon he challenges you to “take a look at where you are;” is this where you are supposed to be in life? Or is there something else you are to do? What is holding you back? Why are you afraid to walk your path? Do not settle in your life because it is comfortable. Do something, make a difference, Walk your path that was intended.
My life finally has purpose; I have a mission in life. My purpose in life is to reach out and touch as many people as possible. I have a calling to help those in need. I have always had a deep connection from childhood to make people see life in a different perspective. There are many ways I will accomplish this throughout my life. Being positive and uplifting is what individuals look for; they are drawn to this and desire to have that within themselves. Another mission is to be a spokesperson for children in our world. Our future lies in these little ones and some just need someone to believe in them. I want to help give life and hope to the ones that only see darkness.
I have been given purpose in this church as well. To help teach the children of our church is an amazing task, which is challenging yet rewarding at the same time. I enjoy talking about God and faith immensely and now I have the opportunity to share what I have learned. This is just the first step with teaching. My new path is preparing me to become a minister and teach all ages the word of God. This church is my new family and I am blessed to have every one of you in my life. Doing God’s work is the greatest reward any of us can have in our lifetime; and we will do it together.
It might have taken me 41 years, just like the Israelites, but He never gave up on me and showed me that it could be done. Deuteronomy 1:8 says, “See, I have set the land before you; go in and possess the land which the Lord swore to your fathers.”
It is time for you to move from this mountain and follow your path, have faith in the Lord and you shall have what God intended you to have.
“Hear now these words from the book of Deuteronomy, chapter one, verses: 1a, 3 and 5 thru 8.
1 These are the words that Moses spoke to all Israel beyond the Jordan – in the wilderness, 3 In the fortieth year, on the first day of the eleventh month, Moses spoke to the Israelites just as the Lord had commanded him to speak to them. 5 Beyond the Jordan in the land of Moab, Moses undertook to expound this law as follows:
6 The Lord our God spoke to us at Horeb, saying, “You have stayed long enough at this mountain. 7 Resume your journey, and go into the hill country of the Amorites as well as into the neighboring regions – the Arabah, the hill country, the Shephelah, the Negeb, and the seacoast – the land of the Canaanites and the Lebanon, as far as the great river, the river Euphrates. 8 See, I have set the land before you; go in and take possession of the land that I swore to your ancestors, to Abraham, to Isaac, and to Jacob, to give to them and to their descendants after them.”
“We now ask our God to open our hearts, as-well-as our minds, to a deeper understanding of these ancient words and how they may enhance our journeys in the Twenty-First century.”